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voicesinmyhead 004 - What song best describes you and why?


I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]




That song seems to fit me in so many ways.

When we lose someone -- or I lose someone -- I just cannot seem to let go. Whether it's us losing someone to death... or losing someone for some other reason, they just always seem to be a part of me. I think of them a lot and it really takes a great deal of time for them to fade -- if they ever do.

The most painful and clearest example that I have of this was when I found out that Cole was a demon sent to kill us. I had fallen so deeply in love with him and I finally thought I had the neverending forever love that Cupid had promised me that I would. When I fell in love with Cole, I thought I had my happily ever after that so many girls and women dream of. When Prue had those empathic powers that didn't belong to her, she even told me how much Cole loved me and that I should go talk to him.

Then, things happened.

My sisters and I had a very bad fight -- one that was caused by Andros, Demon of Rage -- and we used our powers on each other. Because of that, we lost our powers and the Power of 3 was shattered.

After the fight, I ran to the one person I felt loved by and felt safe with. I ran straight to Cole. I had no idea that he was the demon Belthazor that had been sent to kill us -- or that he had been the one that had hired Andros to break my sisters and I apart. All I knew was that I needed him to hold me.

He held me as I cried and then he told me that I couldn't stay with him, that I had to work things out with my sisters.

When I found out a few days later that he was a demon and supposedly our enemy, I was devastated. However, I believed him when he told me that he loved me. I loved him so much and he loved me, so what can you do?

You can lie to your sisters and pretend to vanquish the man you love and accept that you guys can never see each other again.

That's what you can do.


Muse: Phoebe Halliwell
Fandom: "Charmed"
Word Count: 395